But when you lose weight, you always say, 'This time, I'm going to keep the weight off. I will weigh myself regularly and if I start to gain then I will blooming well get my eating back under control. I am never going to be as fat as I was! That would be stupid! After all this effort, I am never going back to being that fatso that I was!'
And 2 years later, there I was on the scales weighing 20st and 7lbs. Feeling like an idiot. A fat idiot.
And that is how it goes, isn't it. Weight loss followed by weight gain followed by weight loss followed by weight gain and so on for the rest of your life.
I have prepared a short presentation to demonstrate me gaining and losing weight. However having prepared it, it seems to show somebody being fat for 10 years. Maybe I didn't bother taking photos when I was thin(ner)
How to keep motivated is a really difficult question. Obviously this time I'm writing the blog and getting sponsorship and I think that I may have hit on a winning formula because I never do anything unless I think I'll let somebody down by not doing it. Which is, I realise, no way to live one's life.
On previous diets I have tried other motivations.
One year Denise and I said that for every pound we lost we would put five pounds in a pot and when we had achieved the weight loss we would spend the money on a super duper holiday. I have a lot more weight to lose than Denise and so this could have been quite the trip! Unfortunately, we ran into the thorny question of what you do with the money in the pot when you've gained weight. Do you just take the money out, in which case it seems like not much of a penalty, or do you give the money away (very reluctant to take this course!) or do you spend it on a consolatory binge at Mrs Miggins Pie Shoppe? I don't recall as ever going on a weight loss fuelled holiday, whatever the end decision was.
On another occasion we used psychology. Yes, that old thing. We'd heard of people putting pictures of themselves on the fridge looking really disgustingly fat as a way of turning them away from the food. But that didn't sound so appealing. Instead we chose positive pyschology. Hoorah! We used images of what we would look like thin to encourage us in our efforts.
A month and a half ago I was on the scales and weighed 20st 7lbs. If anyone, anyone can suggest other motivational methods, please let me know!